please............

she had never call me. she expected me to call her.
if i didn't call her.... she'll put the blame on me for not dialing her number.
she did not even remember that i had finished my theory although i told her the details the last time i went back to ipoh.
She did not know that i had been having butterflies in my tummy for the past one horrible week and how severe those palpitations were.
It has always been like that.
I used to hate her so much.
Ju told me that she'll be very heart broken if that happens to her.

But she called me three times during my long case yesterday!!
THREE TIMES!! wow..... that's something new!

the long case was bad. i was the last one to go in and to come out from the panel's room. I got a case of left sided pleural effusion secondary to lung carcinoma. i missed the liver which was so freaking small!! i percussed all the way up to the costal margin and it was resonant! that liver was below the subcostal margin at the anterior axillary line. her trachea was mildly shift to the right but Dr Niv did not agree with my findings!! grr............when she showed me the CXR... the trachea was really shifted to the right. damn!!

please Dr Niv.... don't fail me because of that! i heard that you are very understanding and kind.
Dr sach .... please help me too although i know that u are really cocky at times...